I’ve Moved

I have created a new blog and I don’t think I will be writing on here much anymore. I prefer to have an anonymous blog even though this one is, I need to feel that what I write/say 100% anonymous. If you like what you have read and want to continue to read me, please delurk and leave a comment and I will email you the URL.


What do I get for going away?

One very needy cat who is was already needy to begin with. We left her with one of Scott’s friend’s and Scott was worried that she would prefer his company to ours, but that is so-not-the-case. She is extra vocal, with one of us wherever we our in the house and is sleeping with us through most of the night, and usually she would only sleep with me when he would get up for work. She is has also upgraded herself into a super attention whore instead of a regular attention whore. Gah! I love my kitty to prieces but I can’t be with her 24/7.


Your Opinion is Needed….

Now that the Peanut will be making his or her arrival shortly it’s time to decide on travel system. And I am not sure what to get! (Or more so my father who offered to buy the car seat and stroller for Scott and I.) I have decided on a Graco brand now I just don’t know what to get. I find the Qauttro strollers to big and bulky and they do not fold up very nicely but I would like a infant seat that fits up to 30 lbs which tend to go with the qauttros. I will be travelling a lot between here and Vancouver and mostly going on the ferry as foot passenger and a lightweight stroller would come in handy however they do not seem to have a lot of room in the baskets and the car seats that compliment them usually only go up to 22 lbs. So here is what I think I have narrowed my choices down to:

Option 1 Graco Mosaic Travel System







-Small Basket

– Car seat is only up to 22 lbs

-Not a lot of storage vs. Qauttro

Option 2: Mosaic Stroller paired with Graco Safe Seat




– Car Seat up to 30 lbs

-More use out of car seat

(For Stroller see above Option 1)


-Car seat is bulky

-Not quite sure if carseat matches stroller (What do you think??? This is a big selling point)

I have tried a Safe Seat with the Mosaic Stroller and it fits.

Option 3: Qauttro Stroller and Matching Safe Seat




-Car seat accommodates baby up to 30 lbs

-Big Basket and lots of storage on stroller


-Stroller is very bulky  takes up a lot of space

-stroller is heavy

Please leave me a comment with your thoughts and please vote on Options 1, 2 or 3! Thanks.


This article sickens me. What judge would give someone custody, let alone unsupervised visitation rights to his child after he tried to to set his own kids on fire? The audacity of some people, whoever approved visitation in the case should have should be stripped of their credentials and right to work as a judge.

10 weeks to go

Admittedly I am getting a little freaked out at the prospect of labor. I am not afraid of the pain, I am afraid of how I am going to handle it. I am not sure if I will be confident and cope as best as I can with my support people or be so freaked out that I will tense up through contractions and verbally abuse those around me. These feelings of anxiety towards labor creep up just after our prenatal classes. I do not feel that I am getting what I need out of them and my expectations are not being met. I do not feel that they’re unreasonably high I have just been through this before as a support person with a friend and have come to expect a similar protocol as the hospital that she had her labor delivery at. When we had our hospital tour everything was laid out on the table for pretty much every conceivable situation in the event of a c-section, forceps or vacuum assisted delivery etc. You knew where you would go for recovery and that dad or support person would go with baby in the event of the c-section. At our hospital, I have no idea where I would go for recovery. I will be sure to ask at our next class of course, but it still bugs me. We haven’t spent nearly enough time on breathing and relaxation; which I am counting on to get me through the early stages of labor.

Another thing that bothers me immensely that ever since I can remember I have always wanted to have my sister present at my birth along with Scott. She has been through it three times and is a doula and I trust her and think she would be a big help. We both figured she would come stay with me around my due date but this will probably not happen as she will be taking in my niece (we have an irresponsible sister who isn’t capable of looking after her daughter who is in foster care) right around the time I am due and going through that transition will be rough on the baby who only really knows her foster mom as her mom and the rest of the family to boot. I can’t in good faith ask my sister to leave the baby and bringing her would be cumbersome as we would need to worry about her while I am laboring away and finding someone to care for her. We do not have family where we live and my house isn’t THAT big for more family to stay… So as my birth isn’t going to be as I envisioned it and I am not 100 % comfortable with our hospital I do not feel good going into this experience. I am a pessimist, trying to be optimistic.


What is society coming to? This story about a “Teen [who] alleges she was assaulted by Victoria police” and all the media attention that it is receiving really pisses me. To sum it up some little snot nosed teenager gets drunk, gets caught being drunk in public, is thrown in the drunk tank by police and is restrained for 4 hours in a padded cell. Three years after the fact her parents decide to sue the Victoria Police Department and show little snippets of her on the news being handcuffed and her legs tethered by a piece of nylon. I have seen interviews of her crying to the new reporter how she was humilated  and her rights were violated as she was only a little 100 lb 15 year old and blah blah blah cry me a freakin’ river.

The media is turning this into a bloody sob story. No mention that she was underage, drunk in public and uncooperative. with police at one point. I am sure the VPD acted according to protocol. So a she was handcuffed for 4 hours and her legs tethered to a door. In the video released I don’t see how she was abused or mistreated. As far as I am concerned if your drunk enough to not handle yourself in public and UNDERAGE you should be thrown in the drunk tank. According to this article her parents weren’t around. What were her consequences after the fact? Why wasn’t she charged for being drunk in public or the person who got the liquor for her? As far as I am concerned all her parents want some quick money and are very greedy. This story doesn’t warrant national media attention nor to clog up the the courts system (albeit it is civil court) wasting resources for people that really need it.

The media and society is so quick to judge the police who were only doing their job, yet when there is an emergency who does society call? It isn’t a good time to be a police officer in Canada in the wake of the whole tasering incident at the Vancouver airport, who are we to condemn and judge the men and women who risk their lives for our safety for us everyday?

Long Hour

It’s going to be a long hour. I just painted my toe nails in god only knows how long and it is going to take a miracle to not smudge them. In the summer I paint them more. In the winter I don’t as nobody really gets to see them. Unless I am doing something that requires me to where opened toed shoes… And this weekend does. I have already smudged my toes 2x. And I am just siting at the computer surfing and reading blogs and uploading photos. I really do need one of those toe separator things. A pen lid just doesn’t cut it.

My toes

I have now shared with you my feet. Oh I can’t wait till I can bend down farther and do a better job. I needed the aid of box while sitting in chair to accomplish these horrible toes.

I am doing my best to kill time here. I still have to pack. I am headed to Vancouver tonight for the weekend. I will finally have a social life. One of my good friends is moving away this week so were having a farewell bash for her. This means copious amounts of drinking on their parts which means my sober pregnant ass will be taken advantage playing the role of DD. Now my only dilemma is what to wear?

I like going to the bar in a large group of friends and I like to dance. I don’t think there is anything wrong with a pregnant women going to the bar to dance and have fun. Some people automatically assume that because a pregnant women is an establishment that serves liquor late at night she must be partaking. Why can’t I dance and have fun? For the most part I don’t have the desire or energy to put the effort into getting ready but once in awhile I do. When I was first pregnant I went to a nightclub with a friend we were in a bathroom talking about my being pregnant and some drunk chick was like “Shouldn’t you be at home nurturing your baby?” To which I replied “I am not drinking, I am not smoking, Why can’t I dance and have fun?” She thought about it and said something like “True enough.” I am not doing anything wrong, if anything I am getting some much needed exercise. (Side note most nightclubs and bars in BC are smoke free and the ones I usually go to are.)

Anyways back to what should I wear? My options are limited here. I wish I had bought this really stretchy pair of skinny jeans which would’ve easily seen me through till now and would’ve looked so cute tucked into a pair boots…  I can ponder this while not smudging my toenails…

Wordless Wednesday

27 weeks

My day/rant

So what do I do all day now that I am not working? Well I starters I refuse to to get sucked into the world of soap operas. I made that mistake in my tween/teen years and do not wish to get into any again. It’s bad enough that I am addicted to Greys Anatomy, really like Private Practice and and I care for Gossip Girl. (Which I thought would be a flop, but so far so good) I am not a fan of court TV or talk shows I don’t care Who Your Baby(s) Daddy(s) is/are. I am a fan of a Baby Story on TLC. I have taken to watching it as I start my day. (Yes I sleep in past 10am, it will be years before I get to do this again). One thing I have noticed is that the newer shows have changed formats and now pretty much just show the hospital part and cuts to before/after interviews and a one month follow up after birth of the child. It isn’t a personal as it used to be.

Another thing I have noticed with the women on the show is how medicated these births are and how they don’t allow their bodies to do what they are naturally meant to do. Lets take yesterdays shows for example. Both women needed to be induced. The first woman’s water had broken or leaked so she was going in to be induced. The second was induced because her doctor had been with her from the beginning of her pregnancy (as most doctors are) and felt she was ready to deliver. There was no mention of fetal distress, going past her due date etc. I couldn’t see one sound medical reason for her to be induced and seemed to be done out of convenience. The thing that bugged me about both of these women that as soon as they were admitted to hospital neither one of them was up walking around or sitting up or using gravity to their advantage to dilate. They climbed up on their perch (bed) and lay there. And of course at the first glimpse of pain in comes the anesthesiologist with his needle to perform the epidural. Of course these women will need the aide of drugs oxytocin/pitocin to be induced if there not willing to do any of the work themselves. Now I am not lashing out on people who use drugs during labor I will most likely myself however, I believe that laboring women (with no complications during their pregnancy) should let their body do the work naturally before giving into the drugs. I know that if a women has been laboring for a long time and will not dilate that drugs may be the very thing needed to get her labor going but it shouldn’t be turned to as a 1st option. I believe that labor is way over medicated today and c-sections seem to be handed out like Halloween candy. This is one of the reasons why I chose to have a midwife versus a doctor perform my prenatal care and delivery. I still plan on having a hospital birth in the event that complications arise and for peace of mind.

Back to topic of my post What do I do all day? More on that later. Dinner is nearly done and needs to be checked. Scott and I have our second prenatal class tonight.

I am off to see my sister today. Which means I am taking a bus to the interior of BC on snow filled highways. Being unemployed gives me this option. I am currently at my father’s place in Vancouver about to embark on public transportation to the Greyhound station with an over packed suitcase and carry on. I have no one to drive me as my dad is out of town, my fiance went back home and any friend that could drive me, work schedule doesn’t coincide with Greyhound’s. I am now headed out into the rain. I am so glad that I brought me umbrella. If you ever travel to Vancouver, BC don’t leave home without it. And the weather forcast said it today would have variable sunshine. Bah!

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